Fatal Distraction

Blog title fatal distraction

Whether or not you identify as an Addict, craving is a distraction, and distraction can kill. It was 2004, and my whole family was at a restaurant, talking and laughing. I couldn't get out of there fast enough. We had buried my grandmother just hours before. I had a three-hour drive ahead of me, … [Read more...]

How to Eat Like a Normal Person

blog title how to eat like a normal person

Why I quit trying to eat like a normal person, and how I finally managed to do it. The kitchen is empty. I reach up to get at what’s left of the birthday cake on the counter. I grab what I can and shove it into my mouth just as my mother walks in. I freeze, hoping she won’t notice my bulging … [Read more...]

Weight Lost Rage Found


How a different kind of weight kept me from drowning in a new, maddening perspective after my massive weight loss. It was 2004. I'd recently lost somewhere in the ballpark of 150 pounds. Like size 26 me, size 6 me was living alone in the same shithole apartment, walking to the same bit job, … [Read more...]

But Good Mothers Breastfeed

Young mother breastfeeding a baby in nature

How trying to fix my low milk supply became a study in the crippling power of shame.   In between the in breath and the out breath, there was quiet. “In,” cued the instructor, and my lungs sprang into action and my diaphragm dropped and my brain leaned back like it always does to settle down … [Read more...]